Our Hill

Sitting on top of our hill with the sun as my backdrop
It's hard to envision how fast five years have flown by.
And it's hard to come to grips that there's only one
shadow showing in the distance.
I'm up here by my own
with thoughts of yesterday being blown by the wind.
When the sun sets, my shadow disintegrates
into a million regrets of what could have been.

Ev Rost © 

Courage, Heart and Soul

I knew that I tripped and fell
When I come back up, I'll have a tale to tell
Well, this is my first time writing in a while,
And I hope it comes out all in style.

Hey, we came here to have a good time tonight,
Now I'm having you all listen to my thoughts
We all have a dream in life,
Some achieve more, some take it with a knife
If you are listening, just know you can do it on your own,
If you have the Courage, Heart and Soul

I was once a kid with big dreams,
Pretending I'd be the next Wayne Gretzky
Always on the block with a stick and puck,
If you came around then you would have seen what was up

I'll never make it in the NHL
So, I began focusing on what else could ring a bell
I picked up a pen and paper made this,
My story from a Vapor.

I always tried my best to impress,
But life's just one big old mess
You do what you have to do to get by,
The only thing changing is the time


Hey, we came here to have a good time tonight,
Now I'm having you all listen to my thoughts
We all have a dream in life,
Some achieve more, some take it with a knife
If you are listening, just know you can do it on your own,
If you have the Courage, Heart and Soul

I wish to see myself at an old age,
With a nice lady by my side
Telling her about my experiences
On life's grand stage

She'd always have my back no matter what
And inside her head, damn, she'd be a nut
Out in public she'd present herself nicely
And would always have a minute to whip me up some ice tea

Holding my hand through it all,
She will always be my safety net for me to fall
We'll plan to have our graves side by side
Even in the afterlife, we will be alright


Hey, we came here to have a good time tonight,
Now I'm having you all listen to my thoughts
We all have a dream in life,
Some achieve more, some take it with a knife
If you are listening, just know you can do it on your own,
If you have the Courage, Heart and Soul

-Ev Rost © 
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I Will Never Find The One

I Will Never Find The One

You told me to write a poem about my happy place
But ever since I last saw you I can't stop thinking of your face
Hiding behind your soft blonde hair
I don't know much but I can tell you're rare

I've done my best to keep quiet
When deep inside I wanted to riot
And open up and let you know
About all the things I wish to show
You, and how great I believe
That you are, I wear my heart on my sleeve

Oh, could this be the start of something new?
Or have I just caught another flu?
I've been love sick since I can remember,
But let us spark into an everlasting ember

You told me to write a poem about my happy place

But ever since I last saw you I can not stop thinking of your face

Seems like I'm looking up at the sky

Getting lost in those gorgeous blue eyes

I'll do my best to keep you entertained
As you wish, we won't be restrained
You seem to be my type of girl
With every laugh you manage to twirl,
My heart into a whole piece
All of my sadness shall cease

Oh, could this be the start of something new?

Or have I just caught another flu?

I've been love sick since I've been born

But with you I can remove that thorn

Oh, but of course this has just been another silly invention
My good intentions, overlooked by awkward tension
For I, deserve to be in solitary
Forever Alone, voluntary

-EvRost©
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Winter Tree

Winter Tree

We are all planted as a seed,
A seed so hopeful as it could be.
With dreams set high of becoming a tree,
A tree that began its journey as a seed.

Springs brings out the bright colors of our leaves,
The leaves hang peacefully from our tree
As we soak in the sunshine and rain.
Summertime also helps us grow,
The sun beats hot and gives us glow.
But there are somethings most don't know

Its that this particular tree shrinks low.
No matter how many leaves are there,
This tree is forever bare, a tree so empty,

But there is one thing this tree knows

Winter is the time to show..


A winter tree is all I'll ever be,
No need for leaves to keep my feet
For winter is the best time,
It's so cold out, time to shine
It's just me and no one else around
The way it should be, peace and sound

This tree sits all alone,
No others next to it, just bones.
Some have tried to help and guide it on its way from birth,Starting out deep beneath the dirt.

When fall rolls around, my leaves begin to shine so bright
But, will only stay for a few more nights
Then there's a pile of all of them on the ground,
Rake and stacked and then never found.
Hopefully I'll see them all again,
High above the clouds when my time is up

By myself is how I am,
If any even began to understand
Then my god, they would be damned..

But there is one thing this tree knows

Winter is the time to show..


A winter tree is all I'll ever be,
No need for leaves to keep my feet
For winter is the best time,
It's so cold out, time to shine
It's just me and no one else around
The way it should be, peace and sound

There's no leaves around to bother,
Where are you, Holy Father?!
It's only my time to think alone,
How it should be, before my cover's blown


-EvRost ©
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Trying To Find Hope

Trying To Find Hope

At the age of 17 I have come to the conclsion to be alone
I have already seen so many examples of betrayal so why bother?
Maybe at the start I set my expectations so high
That no one could ever match it, so theres no need to try

Being young only lasts up until you can infer
That everything around you is just a silly game
A game that all ends up the same

As I grow older, I hope to become someone who can change his views
If I could then, there might just be a reason to carry on
Until that deciding day, I'll keep my walls up but never pray
For what has any god done for me recently?

If there was a god, why would this world be so corrupt?
Is this just needed in society to teach us and help us grow?
Or is this holy human just keeping us all down?

I'm just a naive kid who's been kicked to the curb
Since he's been welcomed into this world
If there is any hope for us, can we find it?
I'll wait til I can feel the hope inside me

-EvRost©

Before I Close My Eyes

Before I Close My Eyes

I've made up my mind,
I want to die. I always have,
why should I lie. For when I die,
I'll find truly happiness.

It's hard to face every single day with a fake laugh that no one hears,
It's hard to face every single day without shedding thousand of tears.
My laughter is the raft in a sea of sadness 
My tears are the waves that overtake a makeshift raft

I know no one cares enough to try and understand,
So why should I give a damn?
To stay alive and depressed or dead and gone,
Finally peace and rest?

That's what I ask every night before I close my tired eyes.
Maybe one day ill find the strength to finally reach my happy place.
I don't know who this poem is written for,
no one cares enough to read it so I guess its for myself.

It's hard to face every single day with a fake heart that barely beats
It's hard to face every single day with so many damn defeats
My heart is the one thing that keeps me going,
It hardly works right, if you'd listen close


I know no one cares enough to try and understand,

So why should I give a damn?
To stay alive and depressed or dead and gone,
Finally peace and rest?

Maybe when I'm dead and gone someone will put it to use,
but right now they are just wasted words and metaphors.
If only I could show you all how sad I truly am,
then maybe it will help all of you begin to understand the way I am.

-EvRost©

Morbid

 Morbid

Has there ever been a time you couldn't get out of bed?

Corrupted by your head, envision yourself dead. 

Have you ever pictured yourself outside of these walls?

Victimized by your own imagination's flaws. 

Did you ever think about the time that you have left behind? 

Thoughts that only you have, none of them are kind. 

Engrossed in my own world, I lock myself in. 

The one who's worthy shall be able to slip in

but for now I'm all alone, left feeling rejected. 

Perhaps this is a better way for no one else is affected. 

I don't see what I have to offer to this giant world,

all I think is that I cause more harm than I do good.

If I wasn't here on earth it would be a better place,

a place filled with one less sorry face.

I often put myself down because I can not feel, 

emotions such as love, which means they are not real. 

The only thing that impacts me are knives and bullet wounds, 

for then I'll see the blood and know that its the truth.

I haven't even be alive enough to witness what life has to give 

and I already know that I would rather not live. 

For then I'll cause no trouble or harm to anyone, 

and everyone would carry on with one song less sung. 

Have you ever woken up at 2 in the morning?

Haunted by your own dreams that you are left morbid.

Has the deadly thought ever crossed your mind,

to take away the most precious thing a human could ever find? 

To travel six feet under and to never return, 

have you ever thought of that or would or would you rather burn?

 

On days I wake up with a smile, I know it always fades away. 

For happiness comes and go, sadness always stays.

Underneath my chest is a scar that barely beats, enough to keep me alive.

I'm so young, should be full of joy instead my body's cold. 

I myself can never get that idea out of my thoughts,

it is always there even if I'm never caught, 

attempting to take away my only chance to succeed.

A chance that I'll just blow, why do I think so low?

I often put myself down because I can not feel, 

emotions such as love, which means they are not real. 

The only thing that impacts me are knives and bullet wounds, 

for then I'll see the blood and know that its the truth.

I haven't even be alive enough to witness what life has to give 

and I already know that I would rather not live. 

For then ill cause no trouble or harm to anyone, 

and everyone would carry one with one song less sung. 

I am beginning to believe that there is something seriously wrong with me, something that I've always known. 

If you were to take a trip inside the depths of my mind,

you would explode with all the horrors you would find.

My cobwebs are spun by 8 layers of torture.

Inside, holding the evilest of evil

Protecting the outside world, 

so no one else can get in

I often put myself down because I can not feel, 

emotions such as love, which means they are not real. 

The only thing that impacts me are knives and bullet wounds, 

for then I'll see the blood and know that its the truth.

I haven't even be alive enough to witness what life has to give 

and I already know that I would rather not live. 

For then ill cause no trouble or harm to anyone, 

and everyone would carry one with one song less sung. 

As I go, I'll leave you all with one final question,

Is there anyone out there with a worse case of depression?!

-EvRost©

Visiting An Old Friend

Visiting An Old Friend

I got an invitation to visit you via my subconscious. 
It's been so long since we've had a nice conversation.
Months have past and I've neglected to pay you a visit.
Thank you for inviting me to come to see you!

Oh, it's been a while now, since I have seen your face,

How come time goes by so fast when your so far away from me?

I apologize that I haven't been around for you lately,

But I promise I'll make it up to you!

I pulled into your driveway, with flowers in my hand,
Your favorite songs in my mind, and a whole in my heart.
When I approached your door, you greeted me with a smile.
A smile seen so bright, it lit the whole damn sky!

Oh, it's been a while now, since I have heard your laugh,

How come time goes by so fast when your high above us all.

My heart so empty, my breath so cold,

Doing the best I can now, to get through it all

I can not believe how you can make this place so glorious!
When everyone who's ever lived in here never gave a damn.
Once you arrived though, you did the best that you could, 
To make this place into a beautiful safe haven. 

Oh, it's been a while now, since I have seen your face,

How come time goes by so fast when your located at the gates?

As I walk through your footsteps, I can not but wonder,
Why these goosebumps never go away on the right side of your home!
If only, we could have shared more moments, before I had to leave.
I hope I didn't bother you as you do your best to rest in peace.


-EvRost ©

Bewildered

Bewildered

I'm feeling more alone than I ever have before

Darkness swirls around the cobwebs in my mind

My heart is by itself in a race it will never win

Someone, please reach out and held me find the road to happiness?

Pacing through the darkness, holding onto little life

Conclusions are often realized here

Mind cannot stop racing, thoughts of blank temptations

When I close my eyes, all I see is pitch black glory

When they are open wide, all I see is deep red hatred

Picturing myself, walking deep into the woods

Never returning home, never finding myself

Pacing through the darkness, holding onto little life

Conclusions are often reached here

Mind cannot stop racing, thoughts of empty temptations

This idea has always been inside at the cusp of my torn up mind

I've always felt a little behind so I stay confined

In the depths of my distorted design,

Where my thoughts are undefined 

Pacing through the darkness, holding onto little life

Conclusions are often forgotten here

Mind cannot stop racing, thoughts of useless temptations

-EvRost©
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Life's Nightmares

Life's Nightmares

Wish I could go back to sixth grade,

Where everyone was sober and things looked astray.

We were so young and had no idea,

Of the nightmares that the world would show us in later years.

Now, at 17, it's hard to look away,

From how cold this world is and the lies people say.

This world makes no damn sense,

It's crazy for most to think so dense.

If we could all just come alive,

Things could be different,

Could improve over time.

Almost six years back, times weren't so tough,

No one was intoxicated with different stuff.

All we wanted was to find ourselves,

Follow the right path and never give up.

Now, in present day, I went and fled,

Contemplating if life's better with words unsaid.

Should we all just turn our heads?

Waiting for the day we end up dead?

If we could all just come alive,

Things could be different,

Could improve over time.

Understanding today's anxiety,

Can make the biggest difference in this society.

But, without those willing to ride over the hump,

It's all for not, if no one can jump.

If we could all just understand,

Everyone wake up and give a damn

We can survive life's nightmares

-EvRost©

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Evil Plight

Written - Winter '10 - Finished June 15th 2011

Taking trips through Hell, all the time..

Evil Plight

Thousand emotions here to visit

All end up in terrible depression

Not all are designed to hurt

My body lays dead deep beneath the earth

Traveling through space tonight

Will I ever end this plight?

Why am I doing this to myself

Feels like I'm dying, going to Hell

Lost the girl of my dreams

But she doesn't even know me

Wished we could have tried

To make it out alive

But I can't even tell you

What's going on in my damn mind

Thousand emotions here to visit

All end up in terrible depression

Not all are designed to hurt

My body lays dead deep beneath the earth

Traveling through space tonight

Will I ever end this plight?

Talking to myself

Can't control this 

Falling into Hell

Yet I thought it would be swell

Everything feels hot

My voice is dead and shot

No, there is not a lot

Who could understand my evil plot

Thousand emotions here to visit

All end up in terrible depression

Not all are designed to hurt

My body lays dead deep beneath the earth

Traveling through space tonight

Am I fighting a hopeless fight?

-Evan7 ©
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Inside Insanity

Written - June 7th - Finished June 13th

Inside Insanity

When you know I need you

You are never found

True love is a scary man

When you meet him he'll tell you

All about the lessons in life

However, don't take his knife

It's there to help you, grow you, mature you

Life by the knife, death by the shield

It's all twisted reality

Live by the knife, die by the shield

It's an inside insanity

Beast from within, frozen in sight

Damn you and this evil plight!

Soaring toward new heights

High, above the street lights

End this silly fight

It's over goodnight!

Life by the knife, death by the shield

It's all twisted reality

Live by the knife, die by the shield

It's an inside insanity

When I need you truly

Just up, and out the way

No words to say, to my pathetic dismay

Always counting on her to believe me and

All the nifty tricks up my sleeve, deceiving

Can't she see, that she is the reason?!

True love is not worth the time

To package up the endless lies

Or hide behind each other's cries

Of desperate words, left unsaid

It indeed won't help you in the end

Life by the knife, death by the shield

It's all twisted reality

Live by the knife, die by the shield

It's an inside insanity

-Evan7©
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Daily Routine

Written - May 24th 2011 - 11th Grade

Don't ever let people hurt you and downgrade you! Everyone is special in their own way.

Don't ever let those cowards stop you from being yourself!

Daily Routine

Kill my dreams with your relentless torture

My hopes dwindle to the floor, lifeless, dormant

Stick to your evil format, blinded by others enjoyment

Smell the love right out of my cold body, dense

Your ambiguous opinions of a defense

Is left unchecked by the public, unguessed

Them, and all their rage

Focus on hatred, doesn't assuage

Bastardized me at such a young age

Crush my body with force, keep on kicking my dead horse

I'll never give up, won't give in, staying on course

Doing my best to keep this source

Head held high, body lay low

Still uptight, trying to glow

One day, you people will know!

Them, and all their rage

Focus on hatred, doesn't assuage

Bastardized me at such a young age

Carrying on, step by step

Looking forward to secrets not kept

By those who deceive me except

I don't need them, no one needs them

Damn you sick people!

Leave me alone at my steeple

-Evan7©
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Ashes Burn To Filter

Written - May 7th - Finished - May 23rd - 11th Grade

Ashes Burn To Filter

As I light up

Disappointment overtakes the light-headedness

Taking drags of happiness

Precedes thoughts of un-fullfilment

Smiling from ear to ear

Knowing this is the last blaff

How many times do we say

My last one, I swear?

I just started, should I quit?

What's the use of that anyway?

All gonna end up the same,

So why worry babe?

Smoke fills the innocent lungs

Fighting the urge to shut down

It comes slowly out the mouth

In one long exhale

Looking straight at the ground

As the ashes burn to filter

Shaking occasionally need a smoke

Don't wanna have to revoke

The joys of it all

From start to finish

Damn, it's great 

But nah, it isn't 

Counting minutes off my life

Relaxing for a little while

Why need minutes when I'm eighty

Dead by seventeen, heaven save me!

Don't believe that though,

So where will I go?

Smoke fills the innocent lungs

Fighting the urge to shut down

It comes slowly out the mouth

In one long exhale

Looking straight at the ground

 Ashes burn to filter

-Evan7©

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Golden Key

Written - May 23rd - 11th Grade

Tryin something new

Golden Key

I'm feeling a little bit different tonight

I'm done, sick and tired of your fights

Cause we all know, in the morning, you're alright

So I know damn well just to leave your sight

Okay, yeah I'm different

Ain't hard to tell

Better than the average

Wouldn't that be swell?

I don't normal write like this

So listen up and see

If ya'll are feelin' it

Give a bro the golden key

I'm feeling the same all the time

Trapped, comfortably in my mind

I seem to just keep writing the same lines

Over and over, tryin to stay on my grind

Okay, yeah I'm probably conforming

Ain't hard to tell

New to this rap shit

Doesn't ring a bell

I don't normal sound like this

So listen up and see

If ya'll are feeling it

Give a bro the golden key

I'm feeling, crazy writing this

If ya don't noticed it, you'll miss

All the knowledge I got to give

Haha, who gives a shit, ya'll just diss

On this like everyone else ya'll all the same

Never get the chance to pick my brain

All these pointless songs, down the drain

Cause they aint good, damn it sucks to be lame

Okay, yeah I'm getting tired of this rap

Most of ya'll believe this is crap

Tryna out something new for myself

Seein if I can do it, check yourself

I don't normal write like this

So listen up and see

If ya'll are feeling it

Give a bro the golden key

-Evan7©

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Captain's Go Down With Their Ship

Written - May 22nd 1AM - 11th Grade

 Captain's Go Down With Their Ship

It's like the seas carrying me into my next adventure

Floating on a boat so warming and kind

I like it here, there's only one thing missing

The Captain needs a lady for his voyage.

Captain needs a lady for his voyage!

Breath her in, the sweet salt air

Feel her body become you

Sinking down throughout the evening yet

The captain needs a lady for his voyage

Captain needs a lady for his voyage!

We hit an iceberg at 19:12

Captain's don't leave, they go down

They go down!

Down with the ship!

Girl I tried my best to keep you interested

Down with the ship, I try my best to carry on

Down with the ship girl, I should have ate my pride

Down with the ship girl, I shouldn't have even tried

To hold you... 

To kiss you...

To be everything for you...

Down with the ship I go

-Evan7 ©
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Mom, Death Won't Play With Me Today

Another song I wrote last night, around 1:30 in the morning haha

Mom, Death Won't Play With Me Today

Death, I'm not scared of you. 

Come at me, gotta bone to pick with you.

Death I'm waiting for you, 

some when your ready strike me down. 

Death I'm awaiting you. 

Seventeen years in and I'm here for you. 

Death, what are you scared of me?

Let's go toe to toe and see who'll get beat. 

Death come at me let's go,

really man, you aren't gonna show? 

Death, here's a toast, come get me now. 

I'm done with this ghost. 

Death, I'm calling you out, don't want me to whisper

Okay ill scream and shout. 

Death, why don't you come out and play, 

It's a nice day out wouldn't ya say. 

Ohh Death, I don't need anyone to defeat you on my own, 

About to show ya how it's done. 

Death come on let's go, 

Don't need to love no one I wanna go. 

Death are you listening to me? 

Take me away from this disarray. 

Death! Old buddy old pal I'm calling your name

I'm not messing around. 

Death! What's wrong with you, 

scared of a low life kid, boo hoo. 

Death, one last chance, take me now

I don't wanna dance. 

Fine Death you win, this time around, cya soon,

Next time,

I don't wanna hear me speak a sound.

-Evan7 ©
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He

Written - May 18th - 20th (1AM) - 11th Grade

He

He sleeps with one eye open

Knowing not of what's to come

Protection for himself from his disgruntled mind

And the consequences that may result

From being an easy target

He knows one day they will show

Taking him from his beloved

To the judas chair he'll go

Becoming a name on a gravestone

But until that day arrives

He does his best to duck and hide

A large black coat  is his disguise

To keep trapped in his lonely world  

Making sure he is not seen

Walking slowly along the seem

He hasn't thought yet of a plan

To get out of this position

Often, he envisions just giving himself up

Why live, when you're own are being killed off?

Why live for tomorrow when it may never come

Why, why, he asks himself all the time

One day, he decided

To face his maker

He went to battle

To becoming a lost soul into hell's half acre

He went out in style

Bullet through his brain

At least now,

May he rest in peace

Forever known as the brave one

Forever forgotten as a starving mind

Forever known as the hero

Forever forgotten as a lost mind

-Evan7©

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My Thoughts Are Not For Sale

Written - May 20th (12:40Am) 11th Grade

Can't stop writing right now.. third or fourth song I just cranked 

out in under an hour.. what the hell is wrong with me? haha

My Thoughts Are Not For Sale

When I close my eyes, a million thoughts enter my crooked mind

Some of praise, some of hate, most of sadness, can't escape

Even as I rest, my heads just a mess

A torn up, beaten down wreck

Up all night, sleep deprived

Don't wish to dream because

I only dream of nightmares

Morbid thoughts engrossed in lies

When I breath in, pollution is filtered through my lungs

Some of love, some of disgrace, most of bullshit, can't escape

Even as I breathe, my lungs are just in haze

Broken, ripped, into two

Sleep all day, life deprived

Don't wanna live because

There's nothing worth living for

Haunted by Today's images

When I see your face, I want to destroy you with my eyes

Sometimes cause of love, sometimes cause of spite, most of hate, can't escape

Even as I see, my vision is blurred

Disgusting pictures I can't describe

Dead by thirteen

Six feet under by sixty

Won't live life up

Demolished by these meditations

When I close my eyes, a million thoughts go through my mind

Some of praise, some of hate, most of sadness can't escape

Even as I live, my life is different

My head is my Achilles heel, so let me die

-Evan7©
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It's Good To Be Me Again

Written - May 19th 2011 - 11th Grade

Took forever but now I'm me again =)

It's Good To Be Me Again

Three years ago today,

I made one of the dumbest mistakes

I let you into my warped world

Wishing I could go back and change the past

But, that's just wishful thinking

Friends better off than what we are today

Knowing what I know now,

Everything would change,

If I had the power to..

Turn the clock back, wouldn't second guess

Our first shot at making it big

Turn the clock back, wouldn't have any regrets

To change what we used to be

Turn the clock back, is the only way to go

But I don't have the chance to make that happen

Turn the clock back, is the one thing missing

To make us become whole

Two years ago,

I didn't realize what was happening

You let me hold your young heart

Wishing I could go back and throw it away

But, that's just devilish thinking

Friends no longer at this second

Knowing what I know now,

Everyone would have been nothing, 

If I could

Turn the clock back, oh dear god

Why would anyone do that?

Turn the clock back, oh what's going on?

Changing the past hasn't been discovered yet

Turn the clock back, why think of this now?

Everything doesn't make sense any more

Turn the clock back, why did we do this?

Everything is forever terminated..

A year ago,

You didn't understand how I work

I tend to see the world with a third eye

Wishing that I could go blind in these eyes

But, that's just idiotic to believe in

Friends, what does that word mean?

Knowing how the future has changed us

Everything would have never happened

If I could

Turn the clock back, to Seventh grade

Make damn sure, that we'd stay that way

Turn the clock back, to Eighth grade

Make damn sure, not to ask that question

Turn the clock back, to still have you

Contemplating why I still miss you

Turn the clock back, to still hold you

Contemplating why we even were friends

Looking to the future

I see nothing new

Everything's forever gone

Finally over you

-Evan7©
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Are you reading this dear?

Written - April 20th 2011, Completed - May 19th 2011 - 11th Grade

Is she out there reading this?

Are you reading this dear? 

Where is the girl I once fell in love with?

Is she hiding in what you've become?

I'll wait...

I'll try and wait for her to reappear

Where is the girl I once held hands with?

Is she fighting her way out of you?

I'll wait...

I'll try and wait for her to come to her senses

Where is the girl that was always with me

Shes now got wings and can fly

She tried...

She tried her best to mold me into the man that I am

Where are they, where are they?

Do you have the directions to find..

To find.. To

Find all the women that impacted me?

Where is the girl that was the one?

Is she gone across the sea?

I'll write...

I'll continue to write these useless poems

Where is the girl that I gave up on?

Has she found a better place?

I'll write...

I'll continue to write so she knows I'm alright

Where is the girl that I'm looking for?

Is she still out there on her own?

I'll write..

I'll continue to write for her eyes only

Where are they, where are they?

Do you have the directions to find..

To find.. To

Find that one woman that's just for me...

-Evan7©
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The One I'll Never Find

RECENT ONE!

Written 3.20.11 - 11th Grade

Is she out there for me?
Can you find me?
Where is she?
I need her..

The One I'll Never Find

Often on my mind

Is the one I'll never find

I have always viewed her kind

Yet I'd never catch her eye

If I got to see her

She'd pass me with a sigh

To her I'd be a blur 

As she quickly walks on by

I envy the man who will

Make her say "I do"

For him, his heart she'd fill

With every "I Love You"

Often in my head

Is the one I wish to wed

I'd much rather talk

Than to be in bed

If only she could see

Enough for one chance

It'd mean the world to me

If I could hold her for a dance

But only in my dreams

Will that ever take place

She's out of my leauge

With her gorgeous face

Often I have hoped for

The day that we'd meet

On a train somewhere

"Oh, please take my seat"

After that we'd hit it off

And my life would be complete

She'd be there for me

After all my defeats

And every single night

I'd kiss her on the cheek

And whisper in her ear

That these feelings can't be beat

Often I wake myself

From this amazing dream

A beautiful, wonder dream

Is all it shall ever be

For the one I pray to find

Will swiftly pass my sight

She never leaves my mind

I'll never hold her tight

But when I close my eyes

She's right there by my side

Forever in my mind

She'll always be mine..

=(

Photo-http://baiberry.wordpress.com/

-Evan7©
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Vile Kiss

Probably my most depressing song I've ever written..  Fall of 2010

Vile Kiss

Shedding tears never felt so good

I just want you happy

No matter what the means for me

I know I always say this but,

If I had one more chance

I'd do things right

I never cut so deep

Its the only thing I feel

That's anything close to something real

Sharpen the blade, slash my wrists

Was this true love?

Did I deserve your vile kiss?

I made a gift for you

Its carved into my arm

It reads “I'll love you forever”

Forever just a scar..

If that was what true love is

If that's how its suppose to be

I never want to feel it

Ever again

I never cut so deep

Its the only thing I feel

That's anything close to something real

Sharpen the blade, slash my wrists

Was this true love?

Did I deserve your vile kiss?

And If I had the guts I would take myself away

Far, Far away

Shall never come back as I

Pull the trigger.

You never cared, did you?

Photo found at : http://www.foundshit.com/tag/rose/

-Evan7©

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November Night

This is a song I wrote for a classmate who passed away this school year (2010)
I was not that close to him, but I feel for his family and friends
R.I.P. Bud

November Night

We never really got a chance

To say goodbye

All we wanna know

Is if you are doing alright

We dream that one day

We'll see you again

High above the clouds

With a smile on your face

Oh, we hope you noticed us

On that cold November Night

Flames held strong 

As the wind blew by

Oh, we hoped you noticed us

On that cold November Night

Hands held strong

As the wind blew by

Sorry if we bothered you

As we tried to say goodbye

Attempting to forgive ourselves

For our wasted time

Take us back to when

Everything was going fine

These autumn nights

Forever changed

Oh, we hope you were here with us

On that cold Novemember Night

Were you the wind?

Were you trying to tell us that you are alright?

Oh, we hope you noticed us

On that cold November Night

Flames held strong

As the wind blew by

Oh, we hope you noticed us

on that cold November Night

Hands held strong

As the wind blew by

-Evan7 ©
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Dystopia

Written - May 5th 2011

This song was influenced heavily by the book 1984. I wrote it about the love story between

Julia and Winston..

Dystopia

Leave it up to me, to find your way

Knowing that it's wrong, you stayed

But not for long, back on your way

What its worth, doesn't matter anyway

Exiled to the land of hate

Never once again I'll kiss your face

Alcohol and drugs won't help to sedate

Solipsism is your fate

Thinking back to the start of our story

Always feels like glory

Even if we dealt with insecurities

My feelings never to change, even if they were temporary

They can never take my heart away

Physical pain only lasts for days

Knowing deep inside you are mine

Will eliminate their evil plight

We've lasted a little while

Never again to reconcile

And you should know that I would walk a mile

Just to let you know that I'll

Never betray you when they take me from our town

Always be faithful so babe don't frown

Leave this up to me and I won't let us drown

Baby, for you, I'll never back down

Through this mess we've become one

Beautifully woven quickly spun

Gone so fast without a son

Taken away by their relentless gun

-Evan7©

Where is the Love?

Written - I don't know. Completed - May 17th 2011

The world today disgusts me..

Where is the Love?!

Where did all the good girls go?

All we have today are sluts, skanks and hoes

No one gives a fuck about love anymore

But how could we when we are surrounded by whores

Where did all the good guys go?

All we have today are fucking assholes

No one gives a damn about love anymore

How could we though?

Think back to a time when love was a prize

A golden reward, they tried to surmise

Today, we all need to be advised

When we step into relationships with snake eyes

Where did all the good girls go?

All we have today are sluts, skanks and hoes

No one knows what the word love means anymore

But how could we when we are surrounded by sex

Where did all the good guys go?

All we have today are fucking assholes

No one tries to love anymore

How could we though?

Think back to a time when love was a guide

When all a man wanted was a bride

Today, its high tide, turning right without pride

They roll in their graves nationwide

Where did all the good people go?

All we have today are ignorant bastards

No one understands what love is today

But how could we though?!

How could we when we are forced to see

Girls without pants at the grand prix

Guys running toward all the debris

People not realizing, they just flee and don't foresee

The future is coming

The future is coming

The future is going to overtake us!

WAKE UP PEOPLE!

-Evan7©

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