Probably my most depressing song I've ever written.. Fall of 2010
Vile Kiss
Shedding tears never felt so good
I just want you happy
No matter what the means for me
I know I always say this but,
If I had one more chance
I'd do things right
I never cut so deep
Its the only thing I feel
That's anything close to something real
Sharpen the blade, slash my wrists
Was this true love?
Did I deserve your vile kiss?
I made a gift for you
Its carved into my arm
It reads “I'll love you forever”
Forever just a scar..
If that was what true love is
If that's how its suppose to be
I never want to feel it
Ever again
I never cut so deep
Its the only thing I feel
That's anything close to something real
Sharpen the blade, slash my wrists
Was this true love?
Did I deserve your vile kiss?
And If I had the guts I would take myself away
Far, Far away
Shall never come back as I
Pull the trigger.
You never cared, did you?
Photo found at : http://www.foundshit.com/tag/rose/
-Evan7©
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This one was most likely written while I was in 10th grade..
Also, many of my songs are very dark and creepy.. mainly because I usually think of depressing things.. Enjoy
Also, many of my songs are very dark and creepy.. mainly because I usually think of depressing things.. Enjoy
Can't Think Straight
Can't believe what I'm seeing today
Many times I've passed away
Wake up every morning surrounded by darkness
You say tomorrow will be a better day
but in my world, there's hell to pay
There's no light at the end of my tunnel
I can't get up anymore
I've thrown myself to the floor
The steps leading to my demise
grow with every sunrise
Can't believe what I'm hearing today
The voices in my head are here to stay
Woke up today surrounded by darkness
The way I think will never change
The clouded skies are here for rain
Why do I always think this way
I can't get up anymore
I've thrown myself to the floor
The steps leading to my demise
grow with every sunrise
Sometimes I just can't take it
Sometimes enough's enough
Some days I never wanna leave here
Can't believe what I am learning today
These thoughts just will not fall out, okay?
Wake up every morning surrounded by darkness
I can't get up anymore
I've thrown myself to the floor
The steps leading to my demise
grow with every sunrise
Sometimes I just can't take it
Sometimes enough's enough
Today I just wanna leave here
-Evan7©
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-Evan7©
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Written for 9th grade guitar class..
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Written- May 7th 2011 - 11th Grade
I've found my place, will you come join meMy Sanctuary
After a rain storm
First sight of sunlight
Dark clouds have parted
For the evenings delight
Thoughts can't be reached
At this gorgeous time
Just take a deep breath
Welcome to My Sanctuary
It's been so long
Since I've been alone
Can't find a lover
To join me here
Will I ever?
Chilly evening's sunset
Taking in the scenery
Nature's so beautiful
Wish you were here with me
Crisp smell of spring
Flutters through my nostrils
Just take one breath and see
Welcome to My Sanctuary
It's been forever
Since I've been sheltered
Inside my head
I found My Sanctuary
Will you join me on this adventure?
They say April showers
Bring May flowers
I've holding the perfect one
With your name attached to it
They consume me as I try to think
Of how peaceful it is here
Just follow me for one night
Welcome to My Sanctuary
I can't recall
When the sky looked so inviting
Let's go reach the top
I'll hold you close
She'll never visit my wonderful place
Change happens frequently
But I don't want this feeling to end
Although it lasts for a couple hours
It's the happiest time to be found
Thoughts can't be reached
At this gorgeous place in my head
Just close your eyes and imagine
Welcome to My Sanctuary
It's been so long
Since I've been terrified
Of what lies ahead of time
I'd much rather not go in along
Will someone please, reach me at My Sanctuary?
-Evan7©
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Written for 9th grade guitar class..
Running & Hiding
People like you always run and hide
But what shall that accomplish before you die?
Wake up every morning, trying to see through the clouds
But what would perish if you should drown?
When rain turns to hail
And everything you try is to no avail
Don't be the one sliding
Down a path to nowhere
Cig pressed to my lips as I walk towards the beach
I think to myself, why must willows weep?
Why must something so beautifully made
Suffer from so much pain?
When rain turns to hail
And everything you try is to no avail
Don't be the one sliding
Down a path to nowhere
We are all trying
To get out of life alive
A goal that is set
To far in the night's sky
-Evan7©
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Wrote this one about myself..
Pressure
The ones who crack under pressure
are the ones that won't succeed
Too bad I'm one of those people
Who just can't take the leap
Many times I've asked myself
to explain the simple facts in life
I'll never know the answers
I'll never know the answers
I, myself am like winter
Trees naked, the air cold
Never will I warm up
And exceed to what I wanna be
Blistering cold out,
No one in sight
I just wanna be the one
That can warm you tonight
The ones who crack under pressure
are the ones that won't succeed
Too bad I'm one of those people
Who just won't take the leap
Many times I've asked myself
to explain the simple facts in life
I'll never know the answers
I'll never know the answers
I try my best to see the light
After all my troubles
Make me so alone
And bitter cold inside
Trying to push all my thoughts back
And refrain from failing again
Hoping that one day
I'll know the answers to all of my troubles
The ones who crack under pressure
are the ones that won't succeed
Too bad I'm one of those people
Who just can't take the leap
-Evan7©
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-Evan7©
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Perplexed
Unrepentant of the same mistake
All of your intentions designed to fake
Hiding gestures you most often make
May my life fall into this lake
Smoke consumes my young lungs
Perplexed by your vicious tongue
My heart I though you wished to swung
These lyrics haunt you as I sung
Looking in your eyes, one last fight
You wish my death, an evil plight
I'll hold your hand with all my might
As you kill me I'll follow the light
Into the darkness of my thoughts
Reminiscing my life faults
The morbid decisions haunt
Me as I force myself to assault
This little book with devious ideas
Always tucked beneath Rosalia
Oh my dear, Black Maria
Often reminds me of sad Sofia.
-Evan7©
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Written - April 19th 2011 - 11th Grade
Never Escaping
For years, I tried to do my best
To hold it in, deep in my chest
Always falling up and down
Lost, confused, confound
Traveling from place to place
Couldn't recognize my face
Holding true to all the pain
Feelings forcing me insane
Never escaping my crooked brain
Time and time again I think
To try to get out all the kinks
One day, maybe I'll get out of my head
But then I shall must be dead
Keeping my head low
For the remainder of my days so
No one could ever have a look
Of the smile-less cover that is my book
Never escaping my crooked brain
-Evan7©
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Written - May 4th, 2011 - 11th Grade
The end has no significance what so ever lol
Perplexed
Unrepentant of the same mistake
All of your intentions designed to fake
Hiding gestures you most often make
May my life fall into this lake
Smoke consumes my young lungs
Perplexed by your vicious tongue
My heart I though you wished to swung
These lyrics haunt you as I sung
Looking in your eyes, one last fight
You wish my death, an evil plight
I'll hold your hand with all my might
As you kill me I'll follow the light
Into the darkness of my thoughts
Reminiscing my life faults
The morbid decisions haunt
Me as I force myself to assault
This little book with devious ideas
Always tucked beneath Rosalia
Oh my dear, Black Maria
Often reminds me of sad Sofia.
-Evan7©
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This one was written for my English class in 9th grade based off a story we read.
With or Without Me
All you gotta do is try
Be normal just like me
I don't wanna have to deal
With the laughter surrounding thee
I'll leave you here by yourself
If you don't do what I say
I'm trying to keep you here
So you don't rot away
Sometimes I just need to see
What the world would be like without me
The problems that you have
Are to much for me
Don't go, don't leave me here
I'll try my best for you
Although its for your own good
I'll still make it through
You are the burning fear in me
I can't stand to deal with you
Forcing the waves
Across the sea
Sometimes I just need to see
What the worlds like without me
The problems that you have
Are to much for me
Hoping you'll finally see
What I did helped you through the world
Maybe not a first
But today you'll finally see
The pain you put me through
Was too much for me
I can not succeed
When your making me bleed
Sometimes I just need to believe
The world would be better without me
The problems that you have
Are to much for me
I do believe
The world is better off without me
The problems that you had
Were too much for me
-Evan7©
